There is a saying: “You learn something new every day.” Today is definitely one of those days. I can’t even begin to tell how many times I have read this parable (Luke 18:9-14). Taught it. Preached it. But each time it has been about the self-righteous arrogance of the Pharisee. Or the humility of the sinner.
Not once have I ever given a thought that it was a prayer saying, “I don’t need you God.” But I can see it. I can also see me. I can see myself in so many ways in this prayer:
- Comparing myself to others (and feeling good about myself spiritually)
- Listing all my good deeds
- Feeling comfortable enough to lose my awe of God
- Believing I am good enough to be there (in His presence).
But even more is to see this is not a prayer at all. It is a commendation list. I. I. I. And as he/I spout off all the good deeds, I am basically telling God, “Who needs you anyway? Who needs your grace?”
How long has it been since my prayer brought tears? Pure silence? Repentance? A deep sense of awe and of being undone? Too long I can say that. In fact, I can’t remember the last time.
“Father, bring me to the point where I haven’t been for a long time. May my prayers not exhibit an independence from but dependence upon you. Strip me of any arrogance or pride or dependent streak. Let me be all about You.”
Bill,
I don’t have much to add…
You reinforce what Tripp has said.
“Prayer is abandoning my righteousness, admitting my need for forgiveness, and resting in the grace of the cross of Jesus Christ.”
This should not be a once in awhile activity… This should be the purpose of anytime I come before God in prayer.
I second your your prayer.
Ryan S.
No it shouldn’t be a once-in-awhile activity. Note to self: get that.
Yes, Lord, let it never, ever be all about me, but all about You.
Blessings, Bill!
I’ll just say AMEN to that Martha.
Thanks for your honesty and heart, Bill. You’re not alone. I too long to be the person God wants me to be.
Thanks for the kind words Floyd. I long to be that.