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Wednesday, July 15th, 2026
It’s been awhile. My last post was July 1 and at that time I was unsure whether I would ever post again. I’ve given myself some time to reassess my thoughts and have decided to post whenever I feel like I have something worth sharing. There will be (at this point) no more LinkedIn posts. While my views were over 300+, it was not a good place for my head. I began to write what would be acceptable or garner views vs writing from my heart. I’m still not sure how often or how long I will do this, but “ya gotta start somewhere!” I wrote this yesterday:
Mother Teresa is credited with saying,
God did not call me to be successful. He called me to be faithful. (quoted in Watching for the Morning by Risner-p.199)
I have struggled in the past of feeling like a failure. Like I’ve not made or had an impact. Lofty dreams that never panned out. Expectations of me and by me that fell apart. Moving from several churches (3) after being asked to leave. Serving a store front church that no longer exists (and probably never should have. There were 25 people when I went there and 40 when I left 16 months later). Laboring in unknown places (2). And yet God has shown me my usefulness and value and impact in spite of those experiences and feelings of inadequacy. Arrogance often got in the way. I admit that. As did my sin. God has truly taken the mess of my life and redeemed it…in spite of me! 🙂
To finish the thought of MT’s quote (from the same book and devotion):
If you would pray to do great things for your God, then you must pray such prayers with regard for how they should be answered.” (McKelvey- quoted by Risner-p.199)
While my dreams and aspirations didn’t materialize how I wanted them to, they turned out EXACTLY as God would have them. I’ve accepted that and I’m okay with that. I just want to finish well.
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Wednesday, July 1st, 2026
It’s been a couple of days since I posted. Yesterday, Gail, one of the ladies who who posts comments regularly, and who is also a member of OVCF, asked me about it. I told her I would explain it all tomorrow (today). But before I do, I’d like to share something from my morning Quiet Time/journal. It comes from Watching for the Morning by Vaneetha Risner- #59. “Watching” is a daily devotional written by a woman who has an incredible story. I would highly recommend this, along with her book, This Wasn’t the Plan (an unexpected divorce). Anyway, here are her thoughts today as she writes about faith being greater than fear, and asks the question, “How?”
- Remember God’s faithfulness. Psalm 77
- Follow my fear and see where it takes me. Psalm 46
- Trust that God will give me the grace I need when I need it. Mt. 6:34; Phil. 4:19
- Remember that nothing comes into my life that has not passed through God’s loving hands first. Rom. 8:28
- Remember that God is with me. Dt. 3:22; Heb. 13:5b-6
- Keep my mind and thoughts on the Lord. Is. 26:3; Phil. 4:8-9. I will add Col. 3:1-4
- Pray. 2 Chron. 20:3; Phil. 4:6-7
My thoughts: no matter what happens God will go with me. I have nothing to fear. N.O.T.H.I.N.G. (I made the points personal with “my” or “me” words).
My prayer: “God, be with me as I ride early this morning, as I study, as I interact, as I shepherd. Help me to pass along these thoughts to those who live in fear. Amen.”
ANNOUNCEMENT: When Gail said, “You didn’t post today. Or yesterday. She actually missed me! 🙂 I told her the following: I have been blogging since February 20, 2008. I have used my Quiet Time journaling to be the basis for my blogging. Lately, several factors have become apparent. 1) My audience for “Shadow” has dropped off dramatically. At the peak I would often have 15-20 comments on my blog but lately it has been 3-4, sometimes even less. 2) And here is the biggest issue: my journaling has been more about posting on “Shadow” and LinkedIn than recording lessons learned from my relationship to the Father. I have garnered over 500 viewers on LinkedIn, but I have had to ask myself if my journaling is for me and God or for me to share with others. I’ve noticed that my journaling has taken on more of a “social commentary” approach. That is NOT what I want my journaling to be about. 3) I have been spending way too much time reading LinkedIn and caring about my viewers. It is time to stop that nonsense. I am the pastor of a church, and desire not to be a slave to any social media. So, as of today, I am taking “Shadow” on hiatus. I thank all of you who read “Shadow” but don’t comment. I especially thank all of you who do. I may come back, but at this point, that is highly doubtful. If I do, I pray it is with the right heart and spirit. Thanks again for reading my thoughts (for what they are worth). And I do still plan to read other blogs and articles.
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Thursday, June 25th, 2026
Words from a revolutionary:
There can’t be any large-scale revolution until there’s a personal revolution, on an individual level. It’s got to happen inside first.
Words from a revolutionary:
A true revival means nothing less than a revolution, casting out the spirit of worldliness and selfishness, and making God and His love triumph in the heart and life.
There is talk today of a revival taking place, especially among the younger generation. Nothing-NOTHING-would thrill me more! To see lives changed; marriages put back together; demonstrations to cease; hate turned to love; praying for instead of preying upon; grace instead of judgment; sinful lives and lifestyles transformed by the Good News; all the above and more would be worthy of a great big Hallelujah!
But as the first quote says (you can see the source of that quote at the end), “It’s got to happen on the inside first.” No outward change revolutionized anything. Changing our looks, our clothes, our status, our abode-nothing-ever brought about significant and life-long change. Only a change on the inside matters.
And only Jesus can do that. No amount of self-help, self-talk, GLP-1, or self-made “changes” will do the trick. 2 Cor. 5:17 says, “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; the new life has begun.” (NLT)
So take it from one revolutionary-THE ORIGINAL- “My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.” (John 10:10 NLT)
Remember: It starts on the inside and it’s yours for the taking.
{Quote #1: Jim (“Light My Fire” and “People are Strange”) Morrison. Quote #2: Andrew Murray- (South African missionary/pastor 1828-1917). Source of quotes: Jesus Revolution by Laurie/Vaughn-p.13}
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Wednesday, June 24th, 2026
He can be trusted.
Hebrews defines faith: “Faith shows the reality of what we hope for; it is the evidence of things we cannot see.” (Heb. 11:1 NLT). That is the biblical definition of faith. I was taught years ago that “faith is belief in testimony of credible witnesses.” D.L. Moody defined it as “dependence on the veracity of another.” (same thing different words). He goes on to say, “Faith says AMEN to everything God says. Faith takes God without any ‘Ifs.’ If God says it, Faith says, ‘I believe it.’ Faith says AMEN to it.” (Moody quotes from Running to Win-Moody/Lutzer-p.183)
Reading that got me to thinking. (Uh-oh). 🙂 A common phrase we still hear way too often is “God said it; I believe it; that settles it.” No! A thousand times No! The truth of what God says is not and does not depend on whether I believe it or not. My belief or disbelief does not change God, who He is, or what He says. God is true; God’s Word is true; God’s words are true; whether I affirm them or not. My/your belief or unbelief does not change His truth. That’s why it is not dependent on my acceptance of its truth. God is unchanging. God’s Word and truth is unchanging. It always has been and always will be, regardless of what I think or don’t think, what I believe or don’t believe.
That saying should rightfully say, “God said it; that settles it; therefore, I believe it.”
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Tuesday, June 23rd, 2026
Lessons learned.
That is the approach many people take toward difficulties they face. It is after we are beyond our “trees” and look back that we often see a divine purpose.
Those thoughts rattled around in my brain after yesterday’s events and what I read this morning. As chaplain of our local sheriff’s department, I take part in what are called Interventions. Debriefings if you prefer. Those involved in the incident-police, dispatch, EMT, etc-get together to talk, analyze, shed some tears at times, and come to grips with what happened. Recently one of our local LEOs was shot (he will be okay) while conducting his duty, but those involved met to talk through their response. As I spoke with someone after everyone was gone, lessons learned kept coming up. “If I had done this” or “If only…”
This morning as I read during my devotional time, the subject of healing was brought up. The writer spoke about the multiple times she was approached about being healed. Each time was a failure. Of course, the huckster (or two) accused her of not having enough faith (their go-to accusation). She ended the devotion with a very insightful paragraph. After saying, “I know God does not promise us healing on this side of heaven” (p.142) she wrote the following, and it struck a chord with me:
I don’t understand why or when or through whom God chooses to heal, but I do know God has done a deeper healing in my life because of my disability. He has taught me to trust Him. He’s refined my character and given me joy in Him apart from my circumstances. And those gifts have become far more precious than any physical healing. (emphasis mine) (“Watching for the Morning” by Risner-p.143)
I’d say, “Lessons learned.” Case closed.
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Monday, June 22nd, 2026
Something to think about:
I’ve been rereading Glad You’re Here by Walker Hayes and Craig Allen Cooper. I read it a couple of years ago and decided to reread it in prep for a sermon series planned for September/October. One of my “fears” is that when we get into the new addition we will lose sight of the closeness of a church family. The book is the unlikely friendship that developed between a pastor and his family (Cooper) and a country music, beer-loving, atheist (Hayes) and his family. God broke down the barriers that existed, especially in Walker’s heart and mind, until in the end they bought houses next to each other and tore down the fence between them.
But there was some “deeper magic” (as Narnia speaks about) that was going on. To quote Craig: “But Christianity is not about what we must do, it’s about what God has done.” Later in the next paragraph he wrote this:
“Salvation is a gift of grace that comes though the perfect life and sacrificial death of Jesus. If we think we have to earn it, salvation will never be ours. But if we can for a moment stop all the arguing and justifying of ourselves in our own minds long enough to simply embrace the beauty and the glory and the wonder of the gift of God, we will see that God freely gave what we could never earn.” (Quotes from p. 75)
It was this free gift-offered in unconditional love-that eventually broke down the barrier surrounding Walker’s heart.
Come to think of it, Walker is not alone. I’m included in that as well. And if you have accepted Jesus, so are you.
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Thursday, June 18th, 2026
{Spoiler alert and warning: this is a sensitive post on a current subject}
Pride.
As I drive into our little town or as I leave, I have to drive past a local business that celebrates this month. (He has a son who is of that persuasion). Everything in me cringes because of what it means. I refuse to celebrate sin. “Happy Adultery Month.” “Happy Lying Month.” “Happy Gossip Month.” How many of us would celebrate those? I’m fairly sure we would all turn a deaf ear to those suggestions as being ludicrous. So…why should I celebrate Pride Month?
Oh, I know what they mean. But, I ask again: why should I celebrate sin? I can’t. I can’t bring myself to celebrate blatant disregard for God’s Word and God’s words.
What’s ironic is the double standard which is being passed off as acceptable. First, they ask for tolerance, but if you disagree with their stand, they suddenly become the most intolerant of all. Plus we have this fiasco going on in Major League Baseball. Christian baseball players are being required to wear Pride caps during the game, but some have taken to printing Scripture verses on their caps. The verses they are using tell the truth behind the rainbow. They want to reclaim the rainbow’s real meaning. But the MLB is threatening them and penalizing them for their stand. Now…let’s talk tolerance. We have employees who refuse to celebrate a sinful lifestyle being fired or harassed or disciplined for their stand. Let’s talk tolerance.
The Bible says, “Pride goes before the fall.” The book of Proverbs speaks over and over about humility and pride. The Greatest Man who ever lived said “He did not come to be served, but to serve and to give His life as a ransom for many.” He constantly spoke about being a servant, about not seeking to be first or to be elevated to positions of prominence. Check out the reaction of the religious leaders who pridefully sought places above others. Pride was their bane, not their blessing.
Nope, sorry not sorry. I love you but I won’t celebrate your sin. My suggestion is instead of pride, one should learn a bit of humility. Kneeling and bowing before a Holy and Righteous God and acknowledging that He is Lord and His Word is true is a good place to start.
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Tuesday, June 16th, 2026
Good morning, afternoon, evening whenever you read this! 🙂
I know I said I would not be on this blog for a day or two because our 53rd anniversary is today, but I have an urgent request for you, my friends. As you may know, my daughter, Janna’s boyfriend, Mike, has been diagnosed with Stage 4 pancreatic cancer which has spread to his liver and lining of his abdomen. He is being tested for a new drug (I can’t pronounce it, but it is the same one Ben Saase has been taking and has seen some good results), but the verdict on that is still possibly a week or so away. Pray, that if it’s God’s will, he will qualify for that.
But the urgent request is that he begins chemo today. He spent the weekend in the hospital in extreme pain (it has been off and on with the hospital), and Janna texted us last night that he begins today and it will be done around 6:30. I don’t know what all to expect, side effects (although I have a pretty good idea from other cases), and ensuing results. I know the doctor is wanting to try to shrink the tumor. Please pray for that. Please pray, also, for his spiritual condition. May God use this to draw him to Christ and Janna’s faith to grow deeper.
I do have one question: why, when things are so serious, does it take 2 or 3 weeks or more for them to start chemo? Anyway…
Thank you so much for taking this request seriously and praying. I will keep you updated when I hear something. I rely on your prayers to combine with mine before the throne.
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Monday, June 15th, 2026
June 16. That’s tomorrow. It’s actually a red-letter day. June 16,1973 to be exact.
That is the day two people totally different from each other said, “I do” to a lifetime together.
- Extrovert vs Introvert
- Athletic vs. Interested but not participatory
- Social glad-hander vs. Reserved fly-on-the-wall
- Arrogant vs. Humble
- Boisterous vs. Quiet
- Tall (6’5″) vs. Short (5’2″)
- Reader vs. Watcher
- Teacher vs. Listener
- Spouts off vs. Weighs words
What gave it away? The height difference? 🙂 Tomorrow, June 16, Jo and I will celebrate our 53rd anniversary. It hasn’t been an easy 53 years. It’s been full of highs and lows (as most marriages are). We moved a lot. I’ve lost my job a couple of times due to my arrogance and vocal personality. I went from a legalistic cad to a grace-filled pastor (which also involved in changes doctrinally which put me on the outs of my previous strain of thought and group of friends). We had 2 daughters (Tami & Janna) who still light up my life. But nothing and no one compares to the one I chose 53 years ago. I haven’t been the perfect husband (I know…shocker), nor always the most sensitive person to her needs, but as I wrote last Mother’s Day: “I would do it all again.”
We met in 1970 at a small college in KY. Spent time with and as friends. Our first date in 1971 went terribly awry, but in the Fall of ’71 began showing interest in each other. Got more committed and she dumped me twice that year (I told her 3rd time was no charm). Got engaged in November of ’72 and married in June between our Jr and Sr year in college. I gave up basketball to concentrate on my grades and being a husband. We graduated in ’74 and immediately moved to Akron, OH where I began as an Associate Pastor. In ’76 we moved to a small country church where I became the “green” pastor. Except for a short ill-advised stint in ’81 as a Youth/Associate Pastor, I have preached ever since. We served several short ministries until we moved to Terre Haute (13 years); Sandusky, OH (5 years); and now Spencer (21 years). Through it all, Jo has been my rock. Never wavering in her love or support, she gladly went with me.
We celebrate our 53rd anniversary tomorrow. But really, I celebrate “her” and “us.” I will be away from this blog for a couple of days. I will respond when possible to any comments, but will not post anything new. Thanks for listening.
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Thursday, June 11th, 2026
How much does it take to make a person happy?
That was the question posed to John D. Rockefeller. His answer: “Just one more dollar.”
Sad, isn’t it? And telling. Sad because we put so much emphasis and lay so much of our happiness on what we attain. Telling because it shows how really bankrupt we are. I’m not an expert in many things, maybe in nothing! 🙂 But at the age of 73 and having been a pastor for over 50 years, there is one thing I AM SURE OF: no man or woman will ever find happiness and contentment in possessions, particularly money. Rockefeller’s answer ought to haunt each person who thinks that having “just a little more” will satisfy the longing in the heart.
There is no question Solomon found that out. Take a few moments and read the book of Ecclesiastes. In fact, I double dog dare you! 🙂 Solomon’s words will set you up straight in your chair as he details all he had accumulated and all he had done, and yet, still says it was all worthless. Oh, how I wish people would realize that today. Actor Brad Pitt sounded so much like Solomon when he said,
“The emphasis is now on success and personal gain. I’m sitting in it, and I’m telling you, that’s not it…I’m the guy who’s got everything. I know. But I’m telling you, once you get everything, then you’re left with just yourself.” (quoted in When Leaders Lose Their Way-p.58)
Seems to me Mr. Pitt ought to go back to the childhood faith that he abandoned years ago.
The follower of Christ doesn’t pursue happiness; he pursues joy. The difference? Happiness is dependent on circumstances; joy is in spite of your circumstances.
How much does it take to make a person happy? Some might think Rockefeller is right, but they will come up empty. The real answer is not happiness but JOY. Therein lies the peace and contentment we all crave.
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